manage me, i'm a mess *

[jasey rae archer]

MANAGE ME, I'M A MESS
turn a page, i'm a book, half unread...

Slipping her half of the 'best fuckin' friends' necklace around her neck; Jasey Rae Archer was ready to, ahem, rumble. She had her clothes on, her hair was pushed back by the skinny black hairband and her feet were clad in 'Riot' sneakers. All that was needed now, was to get back to school before she was late for her first class of the afternoon. Of course, she had been in school in the morning, but that had been before the big paint explosion that had happened in the art room, where some idiot had brought in some firecrackers and thought that it would be funny to set them off, right where Jasey Rae had been standing at the time. The result had not been very comical and she'd fled the classroom in such a hurry that she'd forgotten her bag and all her work from that morning. This time though; there was to be no going back if something else happened; she needed to focus and try not to get bullied again. She shook her bangs out of her face as she left her house, saying 'bye' quietly.

The walk too school from her house wasn't too bad; at least she knew that she wasn't going to be late, because she only lived, at least, five minutes away and she walked pretty fast. Well, at least she thought she did. Jasey soon arrived at the school, with only moments to spare for her next class; she thought about getting her bag, and was just about to do so when a pair of hands grabbed her around the waist and lifted her off of the ground. "AAH!" The little sophomore was so taken aback by what had just happened she didn't know whether to scream for help of just scream in general. "LEMMEGO!" Unfortunately, the person holding her didn't seem to hear and just carried on dragging the kicking and screaming Jasey all the way down the path and into the school. Or, rather; the auditorium; where he - or she, Jasey wasn't too clear on the gender - shoved her into one of the supply closets and locked the door with a broom. Then they left, laughing to themselves.

It was terribly dark in the supply closet, plus there was hardly any room; Jasey suddenly started to become very anxious. She was deathly afraid of the dark for all the right reasons. Her breathing started to quicken as her heart beat raced, her hands started to shake and Jasey felt a panic attack coming on. It was nothing unusual for the sixteen year old girl to have a panic attack over the dark. She couldn't help who she was, or what happened to her. Though she had been given some form of therapy for it; but that never worked out, Jasey was deathly afraid of the dark and always would be. Turning her head in every direction possible, the musician started to panic even more; she tried the door but it wouldn't budge, so settled for kicking it instead. She was breathless and overly panicky by the time the door opened, hardly able to stand up she ended up falling into the person's arms, still shaking and breathing heavily from having been shut in the cupboard; in pitch black. It had been too scary..

[/b] none that i care to count.
TAG: ellaaa.
LYRICS: weightless - all time low
OUTFIT: right here.
MUSIC: therapy - all time low.
NOTES: errrm, idk!?[/size][/ul]

[ella hannah wright]

Ella had heard about what had happened to Jasey in the art room during the morning and of course Ell had dealt with the idiot who had set off firecrackers in the art room. After dealing with the idiot she couldn't help but feel slightly worried for Jasey as she played with her half of the 'best fuckin' friends' necklace as she sat in her boring math class. She didn't understand why she needed to learn math to become a famous photographer but whatever she wouldn't complain. Sighing softly she just sat there listening to the teacher go on and on about stuff that she had already known from last year. Glancing over in the direction of the door she just looked back on over to her teacher and stuck her hand up as she asked if she was able to go to the bathroom.

After being let out from her class Ell quickly made her way through the halls and down over to Jasey's classroom or rather the one she was supposed to be in right. Taking a quick peek inside Ell scanned over the students and she hadn't seen Jasey at all. A ping of worry ran through Ella's body. Something was clearly wrong she could just feel it. Glancing around the silent halls she ran on over to the auditorium just in case the band was practicing on the stage. Once inside the auditorium Ella took a quick glance around. "Jasey Jasey you in here" she called out with a hint of worry in her voice. If anything happened to the one girl she secretly was in love with she wouldn't know what to do.

Ella then climbed on top of the stage of the auditorium and made her way backstage close to the supply closets. Walking past one she heard kicking from it and a broom locking the door. More worry just peeked through Ella's body. She knew how Jasey got when she was surrounded by darkness. Quickly she moved away the broom and opened up the door catching Jasey right into her arms. "Jasey it's okay I'm here I'm here" she spoke in her soft reassuring voice. That was when she led the both of them to a couple of seats in the auditorium and sat down before she allowed Jasey to sit down on her lap and cuddle up with her.

outfit: Outfit

[jasey rae archer]

MANAGE ME, I'M A MESS
turn a page, i'm a book, half unread...

From inside the supply closet, Jasey could hear a strangely familiar sound, but it was soon drowned out by the blood rushing around in her ears as she struggled to remain calm. God, if anything were to happen to her; there would be hell too pay, and she wouldn't even be the one dishing it out! Jasey bit down on her lower lip as she strained to get a hold of herself; her mother had once said that there was no use in crying over spilt milk - but what's the use of the acronym if there was, currently, no milk around for her to spill... or even cry over. At the moment all there was, was the total darkness and no light to allow her to calm down; there wasn't even a light switch to turn on the lights, but that was to be expected, it was only a small supply closet anyway, so yeah.

Jasey Jasey you in here. The familiar voice knew her name, and whilst Jasey wasn't too sure about whether or not she should answer, something told her that it was Ella... The sixteen year old tried to answer, but her words got stuck in her throat and her breathing shallowed out a lot more. She was getting to the worser parts of the panic attacks, where she, eighty nine point nine per cent of the time, passed out from it. Jasey hoped to God that today wouldn't be one of those days, otherwise she probably wouldn't be found until the next time this supply closet was opened. And, goodness knows when that would be! She dread to think about that and tried clearing her mind.

It wasn't until the closet was opened and she fell into the arms of a female, did Jasey realise that it was Ella; she had been saved and she was, now, for the most part, safe. Jasey it's okay I'm here, I'm here. The younger one nodded slightly and allowed herself to be pulled over to a seat and then into Ella's lap - the older female's arms wrapping around her in a cuddle. Reassured that nothing was going to happen anymore, Jasey tried to control her breathing as she buried her head into Ella's chest and wrapped one arm around her neck, her other pulling gently on the hem of her t-shirt, scrunching it up in a tiny fist, as if to say 'don't leave me'. Her heart beat was still racing, but her breathing was becoming more controlled as the moments passed, though she fidgeted a little in Ella's lap, still on a bad high about what had just happened to her; voice still lost, for the moment.

[/b] none that i care to count.
TAG: ellaaa.
LYRICS: weightless - all time low
OUTFIT: right here.
MUSIC: ---
NOTES: errrm, idk!?[/size][/ul]

[ella hannah wright]

The only thing Ell could think about right now was making sure Jasey was going to be alright. She didn't even care about the person that did this to her at least she didn't care about them for now. But, Ella was sure going to find them and give them hell once she was sure that Jasey was all alright. When she wrapped one arm around her neck and felt Jasey's hand on the hem of her shirt holding it in a tiny fist Ella just had a feeling if she hadn't gotten to Jasey when she did things would have been a lot worse for Jasey than compared to how they were now.

Ella didn't even care if someone walked in on the two of them cuddling right now either. Most students and teachers around the school already knew that Jasey and herself were quite close already. In fact sometimes she was the only one who could calm Jasey down when she was like this. "It's all alright Jasey I'm here it's over and it's not going to happen ever again" she reassured her softly as she let one of her thumbs rub gently over the younger girl's smooth skin.

She was going to make sure however did this to Jasey was going to get hell. No one ever did something to Jasey and got away with it. Ella always made sure she was there for the younger girl. Even if she wasn't actually a part of the band and only the band's photographer she still made sure that nothing happened to Jasey and when it did well she couldn't help but, blame herself. Ella then took in a few calming breathes of her own trying to allow Jasey to copy her breathing to calm her own breathing down.

Ell didn't fully understand where Jasey's fear of darkness fully came from. But, she did know that it could be quite serious if she was left in the darkness for to long. "How about if you sleep in my house tonight will that be better so you won't be alone" she suggested calmly to the younger girl as she gently used one of her hands and began to rub her back.

outfit: Outfit

[jasey rae archer]

MANAGE ME, I'M A MESS
turn a page, i'm a book, half unread...

Jasey was glad to know that there was one person out there, in the world, that cared for her as much as she cared for them. Sure, she had a family whom she loved dearly, but her love for Ella extended a lot farther than she would care to divulge with them, though she usually told them everything there was to know about her daily life at school. And they updated her on their current events of affairs; trying to locate her missing brother, which was more than just important. He'd been missing for a year now; presumed dead, but everyone knew otherwise, Jasey moreso.

It had been the events leading up to her brother's disappearance which had triggered these worsened panic attacks on the young sophmore - she'd had them since she was little, but through the year, they'd progressively gotten worse and she hadn't the heart to tell Ella way this was happening. Instead, she'd just said nothing about the matter, but insisted that she was fine. It's all alright Jasey I'm here it's over and it's not going to happen ever again. Would that be the just incident, or the panic attacks, because if Ella meant the panic attacks, then she was wrong, because they would happen again and both of them knew it. The funny thing about Ella touching her skin was that it made Jasey tingle.. but it was a good tingle; she thought.

Ella took a couple of breaths, supposedly to calm down and to get Jasey to follow suit. For the most part it was a wasted action, but then, at the same time, it was also relaxing. Jasey attempted the deep breaths, but was only successful in coughin instead. She gripped Ella's top a little tighter and tangled her fingers in the bottom parts of Ella's hair, gently. How about if you sleep in my house tonight will that be better so you won't be alone. That was a charming notion; Ella had known that Jasey's parents were out of town at the moment.

She felt that hand on her back and closed her eyes, sighing quietly as she thought about the answer to Ella's question. Yes, she would like to stay over at Ella's tonight. No, she couldn't find her voice; it was still in her head; as was her racing heart. Struggling to control it, Jasey took a few more seconds to get herself under control before opening her mouth and whispering, "I like that idea." Her words were muffled by Ella's top, but she hoped that she would be able to hear them.

[/b] none that i care to count.
TAG: ellaaa.
LYRICS: weightless - all time low
OUTFIT: right here.
MUSIC: ---
NOTES: errrm, idk!?[/size][/ul]

[ella hannah wright]

A small sweet smile was formed gently on Ella's lips as she heard the words that Jasey muffled out to her. Even if they were muffled she was still able to make them out. "I knew you would" she spoke again. Ella made sure to speak in her soft and reassuring tone right now. She wanted to sound as reassuring as she could around Jasey right now to help calm her down. She then took a quick glance around the auditorium before she looked back down to the younger girl that sat gently on her lap cuddling up into her chest.

"Come on Jasey everything is going to be all okay I promise you" she reassured her softly. "Come on let's just get you home your teachers won't mind I promise" Ella reassured her softly. That was when she brought her other free hand up and gently began to brush Jasey's hair out of her eyes and face and gently behind her ears. Ella was about one of the closet people that were friends with Jasey. But, secretly she wanted to be much more then just friends. She was in love with the younger girl like actually in love with her.

But, at the same time Ella was to afraid to say anything at least for now. Ella then slowly helped Jasey stand back up again before she stood back up herself and began to lead the both of them out of the school. While walking Ella made sure she was close enough to Jasey so the younger girl could still cuddle up with her if she needed to. She just lead them out of the school then on over to the student parking lot and over to her car. Taking out her car keys Ella unlocked her car before she opened up the passenger's door and held it open for Jasey to get on in herself.

She couldn't help but feel sorry for the younger girl. Ella just wished she had gotten to Jasey quicker so her panic attack hadn't got this worse. "We'll be home soon I promise" she spoke with another soft smile.

outfit: Outfit

[jasey rae archer]

MANAGE ME, I'M A MESS
turn a page, i'm a book, half unread...

Jasey nodded gently; she knew that now they were going to go back to Ella's place instead of going back to class. She was glad for this though, because she wasn't too sure that she would be able to stand going back to class, not with the current panic attack and the thing with the paint, already. Ella's voice was soft and reassuring; it made her smile slightly as she stayed cuddled up to her.

Ella assured her that the teachers wouldn't mind her leaving the school, but she knew that they would, if only slightly. Then they would also realise that she'd probably have had a panic attack, they normally made her go home after having one. She thought about what they were saying when she felt a hand on her cheek, brushing her hair out of her eyes and behind her ears. Jasey looked up slightly, her expression a little coy, before they were on the move, to Ella's car.

Her arm was wrapped around Ella's waist as they shuffled, slowly over to Ella's car, her head rested on her shoulder until they reached the car and she slid into the passenger seat, pulling on her seatbelt and leaning her elbow on the window frame. The promise of being home soon was made, Jasey simply nodded; it wasn't that far from school too Ella's house and the ride was over in no time at all. Now she didn't feel the need to be scared; she was thoroughly safe in Ella's company, knowing that there was nothing that would touch her.

Eventually the car was pulled to a stop and the two female's climbed out of the car, sidling up the path and entering Ella's house; where Jasey stretched herself out on the couch, with one arm hanging over the top of the couch. She looked over at Ella for a moment, chewing the inside of her lip and rubbing her eyes with her fists. Jasey was kind of tired, but the panic attacks were to blame for that; they always seemed to make her tired. "Ahh, this is much better." She mumbled.

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TAG: ellaaa.
LYRICS: weightless - all time low
OUTFIT: right here.
MUSIC: ---
NOTES: errrm, idk!?[/size][/ul]